Sunday, May 3, 2009

Our Amazing Little Miracle!!!!!!

She's Here!!!!
Makenzie Ann Porter

At my last doctor visit, my doctor decided to induce me.
We were told to check into the hospital on Monday morning at midnight.
After we got there, they started the induction with a drug called Cytotec.
I had contractions all day Monday that were read by the monitor as being pretty intense, but (as you can see in the picture) they weren't very painful or productive.

After 20 plus hours of those contractions, they started me on pitocin.
By now it was 11:30 at night and I was exhausted from sleeping so little the night before.

I fell asleep for a few hours and woke up at 1:00 a.m. with PAINFUL contractions.
I was determined to have the baby without an epidural so Brad and my mom were both there to help me through the pain.

They were both amazing!! Massaging me and talking me through each contraction.
I wouldn't have been able to do it without them.
Being so exhausted, I often fell asleep between the contractions (even having dreams).
I had hard labor for nearly 5 hours when my water broke.
Soon after that I felt an intense need to push, but my doctor wasn't at the hospital yet so my nurse wouldn't let me.

This went on for a half-hour. As difficult as labor was, fighting my body's instinct to push for that half-hour was by far more painful and mentally draining.

Finally, the doctor came. Being in such a rush to get to the hospital, he got pulled over on the way.

But, it was all worth it!!!

And I'd do it all over again in a heartbeat.

After 7 years of marriage, 8 miscarriages, deep and intense heartache,
we were blessed with a miracle that would impact me more than I have ever imagined.

On Tuesday morning, April 28, 2009 at 6:47 a.m.,
We were blessed with an Angel from Heaven.
A perfect little being.
I am so overwhelmed!!!!

My deep, wrenching pain and heartache has been transformed.
I am now weeping tears of joy.
My joy is so great and my heart is so full!!

The love I feel is so profound.

I never knew these kinds of feelings existed.
She is a gift...sent directly from Heaven.She is our MIRACLE.

This miracle has transformed our family.
An amazing, long awaited, change is taking place in our home.
Our hearts are being softened and healed.

She brings out a gentleness and softness in the kids that I have never seen and I'm sure that they have never felt.
Their broken little hearts seem to be healing with just the mere presence of our little angel.

Their desire to create chaos, because chaos is all they've ever known, has lessened dramatically!

Brad and I have even felt a massive change taking place in our own hearts.
We are slower to anger and quicker to love.
Our voices are calmer.
The turmoil and stress we have been feeling lately (from our seeming failed efforts to help and teach our children) is GONE.

Finally, I can see peace in their eyes...
love in their faces and actions...true and deeply felt joy...healing and gentleness...

All wrapped up in one tiny little package...
a package of pure heaven...
a tiny bundle of love...
is the answer to
SO MANY tearful prayers sent up to heaven.

She is our miracle in more ways than can be counted!!

if you're listening,

and I know you are

Thank you!!!
For sending one of your finest angels to grace the walls of our home and hearts.
She is healing our pain like only an angel can.

She is a miracle

A miracle we call Makenzie Ann Porter.